There are times when most of the things seem to be on a standstill and you are just waiting for the next phase. But the halt is getting prolonged making you more and more impatient. Anything but just a change will set things right.Its like being on board a flight and eagerly waiting to land. Know what? m getting airsick now!

Float

I am getting back to my 'floating in air' phase. I had spent last few years in this phase too. Its out of my control and returns to me again and again. I float in a place which disconnects from the present, the surroundings, the sounds, the noises, the people...., I listen coz I have ears, I smile coz its otherwise rude, living coz I am breathing. A dormant mind state and its a lot different from getting high(of course I haven't had that experience yet). I can stand in the midst of a busy crowd walking past me and dedicated to their work. I hear noises like buzzing and I am not interested to hear them at all. A mechanical schedule to keep me going or rather prevent me from falling flat on ground tired and exhausted. I want to lie on plain green grass which isn't wet, hold his hand and sleep on his shoulder. I want to go somewhere else and pity the people around from atop a hot air balloon as if they they are ants. I want a rewind button for a lot of reasons. I smile when I look outside the car window and cry for flimsy causes. The white noise in my head grows and its not possible to describe sometimes what I am thinking. Clothes and shoes don't matter to me.I forget what I wore by the end of the day.Books have taken a secondary place in my life. My back aches without working much. The exertion is placed at a fixed corner of my brain. I named my alarm "dedication" and it gets snoozed 5 times before I wake up.
My arms rub against the tight rope and I think I am loosening the knot now, even if I have to bleed now.

Love,Life and 20 years

I stand here(rather sit:P) perplexed thinking whether I am satisfied or dissatisfied within. For all that has almighty bestowed me with is what a handful of people in this world have and I am grateful to him. But greed has no limits and its human to wish more in life,right? Forgetting about all the mistakes I have done so far and I hope to do more. A perfect result, a perfect degree, a perfect job, a perfect life??? I do not wish to live a 'perfect' life and learn nothing out of it.

Who knows if you do not get to see a 'tomorrow ', but its still worth taking a risk to die in the arms of the person you love.With no regrets because the unsaid words have been spoken. We have less time in our hands and more & more love to share. Its a short life to spread our love across the world.I must say Mother Teresa was one content n happy person on her deathbed.

P.S: Thank you, God for everything!!!