One good cry

Life has its own way and things will never turn necessarily the way you want them. What is in your control is the power to stay motivated. If everything were perfect, there is no urge to try more the next day. Losing is a part of being alive and it means you are trying.

We tend to expect more and get attached to our dreams. It is difficult to get over them when they don't come true and it was everything you ever wanted. This is where bracing yourself to accept defeats come handy. Play more and then you learn its all about the sport and not just the match you lost.

One good cry is a privilege given to you. There is nothing wrong in mulling over a loss for once. It makes you human to grieve over a defeat. Take it, soak it all in, make your one good cry and then embrace the next new day. But remember no loss in the world deserves more. Don't look back another day and wish "If only..". No! Move on and make your one good cry worth its time. 

She shouldn't

BBC'S documentary on "India's Daughter" has created this recent uproar of why the video should be banned in India mostly for technical reasons. I watched the entire documentary and I believe there's nothing much unknown about the facts shown in it. Banning the video is similar to the attacks on protesters at India gate for Nirbhaya.
Coming to the point, it has excerpts from one of the accused rapists in addition to 2 defendant lawyers for them. Does it shock me to hear their justifications for what was done was appropriate. Well maybe not. I was born and raised in this country and I know how people think. A major chunk of people still believe today that women aren't equal and it is fine to show them their place.
American women practiced their right to vote for the first time in 1920 and that too after decades of struggling. Today they earn equal wages, enjoy freedom and have been granted equal rights. But that's too westernized for our culture.
We had an iron lady as our prime minister for over a decade. A female President and two consecutive Lok Sabha speakers which goes to show our women get equal treatment. But a society is identified from the position a woman is given.
Drilling down where does all this spite for women originate. Some people cannot tolerate people different from them, be it a different gender, different race even different religion. This intolerance escalates to a level of so much hatred that one can go about inflicting horrendous sexual violence on someone who never has and never will cause any harm to them.  It still is unacceptable for a girl to be out on her own and if she is willing to take the risk then it is rightful for men to rape and teach her a lesson. These men claim with an audacity that she shouldn't and that's why we should.

Picture from 1967 Boston Marathon where the first lady runner Kathrine Switzer took part. “No woman can run the Boston Marathon,” said Arnie Briggs, Kathrine Switzer’s running coach.  

Halo

I have absolutely made peace with the fact in my mind that the affection I give to a person may not necessarily be received with the same intensity and returned back at all, but that does not imply that one needs to hold back their honest feelings. The only thing you should hold back is a fart in public.

But if you do not mean them and you are faking it then stop immediately. It is wrong to play with feelings that aren't yours. Stop your tease and get people off the hook. They deserve better people in their life than selfish ones like you. Stop bullshitting and wasting their time while you are toying with them boosting up a misplaced ego. 

Doesn't it hurt your conscience in any way? Do you sleep in peace? How do you face yourself in the mirror? Or are you so much in love with yourself that the world only revolves around you making everyone else insignificant? 

Think over it and please stop doing what you are doing! 

Proposal

Let's just say there was only one religion. Humanity. No, but then we'll have excuses to kill animals saying they are not from our religious group.
Ok, one religion just for being...being alive.

Next we have a humongous group with a unanimity for their own religion. No, but then they'll seek for their leaders. One for humans,one for animals, one for houseflies and one for bitches.
Ok,one leader just for all...that too a good one who is self righteous and humble.

Next we give them sources of energy. No, but then they'll kill each other to get it.
Ok,one resource which is unlimited and accessible to all.

Next we will give them a purpose of being alive. No, but then they'll turn selfish for their gains.
Ok,one purpose only for all...live and let live.

Dear god, can we please have a fresh start?

What is wrong with you?

Sticking out his tongue with his head popped outside the window, he never seemed so detached from me. I rubbed his furry neck "You haven't been yourself lately and don't eat well either.Pugsy, what is wrong with you?"

He turned around and said "What is wrong with me??? You ignored the little child who came begging for money at the traffic signal but you never think twice spending an extra 1000 when buying yourself a dress. You gather around,meet a bunch of people over meals and drinks only to keep your head low and text that person who isn't present, you crave approval from people who don't even care about you.

What bothers you if your friend is doing better than you instead of achieving your own goals. You spend three quarters of your life working your ass off and earn only to spend all of it to regain a lost health in your last quarter of life.

You care more about the length of her skirt than her vagabond ideas. You have an excess of educated young people wagging their tails around for a good pay but none to lead the nation. You adorn a bamboo plant in your house because it brings you prosperity but will cut down forests. You kill harmless animals for their meat, tusks, skin and think posing nude for a PETA poster is a contribution. You will dump ice on your head to donate but not help a diseased man on the road.

You fear god and pray for only yourself while knowing that each day thousands of people are being killed,houses bombed,forced to flee from their homes and live in refugee camps. There are mothers cradling hungry babies near railway tracks and all that matters to you if I ate my pedigree. What is wrong with you?"

I hit the brakes hard. "Damn, my dog talks!"

Lilac

6 am already!
I could kill to get 5 more minutes. One big day lied ahead. Her first performance on stage. She loves her dress especially the lilac laces I stitched at the hem.

I stared myself for a while in the mirror. My eyes look dull. How time flies.  Years ago there used to be a sticky note every morning on this same mirror. I have each one of them stored safely in a box inside the storeroom. Though I don't look at them anymore now.

"Happy birthday Ma!"
I turned around to find my angel in her teddy bear pajamas. Rubbing her sleepy eyes she held a lily plucked from our backyard. It meant everything.

Her play was fabulous. Children grow so talented these days. All the parents were gifted with a bouquet by the kids at the closing event. I forgot mine and left them lying on the chair.

She won't eat tonight with all her excitement and endless talk. I could finally put her to sleep. The doorbell rang at 11:30.

There was no one outside. As I was about to close the door lied there  at the doorstep, the same bouquet of lilies. Tied to its end was a scrolled note.
"She's got your eyes, but they look at you just the way I did."

Rachel Green

The one who made it to Ralph Lauren all the way from a coffee house waitress by herself. She was the most inspiring of all. Sabotaging Ross's every relationship, Rachel did come across as a selfish  person.You end up loving her even though she started off as a vain rich girl but grows up to be a strong independent woman throughout the series. Chubby ankles couldn't keep her from running off in a bridal dress and take on a new life.
Finds a guy, falls in love, gets off a plane, has a wedding, gives birth to a beautiful baby girl with the guy she loves..but none in the right order coz it would have made her normal then.